nineteen days

day eighteen

Posted in the fast - 2009 by amysahba on March 19, 2009

“Do not bring our fasts to an end with this fast, O my Lord, nor the covenants Thou hast made with this covenant. Do Thou accept all that we have done for love of Thee, and for the sake of Thy pleasure, and all that we have left undone as a result of our subjection to our evil and corrupt desires. Enable us, then, to cleave steadfastly to Thy love and Thy good pleasure, and preserve us from the mischief of such as have denied Thee and repudiated Thy most resplendent signs. Thou art, in truth, the Lord of this world and of the next. No God is there beside Thee, the Exalted, the Most High.”


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amy: the fleetingness of this exact moment – that is the theme of this Fast for me. these days, simultaneously so precious and so ordinary that i worry i am both painfully aware of every instant of them that is not lived to its maximum capacity, and just as painfully aware of them zipping by so swiftly i barely see when they start and when they end. if it weren’t for this Fast – that endows each sunrise and each sunset with such significance, every single day full of the entire spectrum of possible feeling –  prayerfulness, detachment, assurance, doubt, focus, confusion, love, gratitude, frustration, joy, humility… . it is possible, utterly possible, to be unable to find the words to say ‘Thank You’ for all of this.

omid: i’m a bit sad that the fast is ending, yet excited to celebrate the start of a New Year. i liken it to a dear friend who is leaving your home after having visited (and slightly overstayed) for three weeks—you’re sad they’re leaving but relieved that you get to go back to life as usual. it’s the heightened spiritual awareness and detachment during the fast that i want and hope to continue to hold onto.

leila:  today was a reminder of how much and how many things can change in one year.  21 March 2008 was the end of this project’s first iteration and the beginning of a new stage in my life, though i wasn’t yet to know it (two weeks later i was gravid).  next week shaun and i will probably begin preparations to move … again (our third relocation in as many years of marriage).  i have been spending the day with a friend as dear as a sister, and we spoke of the delusions of our youths, the brightening hopes of our presents, and the possibilities of our lives to come.  many tears were shed, but so was much laughter (which took us back to tears).  i feel inspired by possibilities, this love that is so large, and tickling warmth of a really good home-cooked curry.


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  1. amysahba said, on March 20, 2009 at 9:58 am

    omid – i love the parallel lines in both your photos… just beautiful! and i love your explanation of the Fast – it is exactly like a friend who stayed ever so slightly too long!

    leila – what a year you have had… so many changes. and i am excited for you for these new, upcoming changes! love you SO much.

  2. child-of-africa said, on March 20, 2009 at 11:25 am

    sweet sweet so very sweet and precious. thank you so much for sharing the beauty of your creativity with the world. i am always so moved by the down to earthness, depth, and sincerity, of the spirituality on this blog. looking forward to checking in next year. hopefully i will remember at the beginning of the fast.

    Happy Happy Naw Ruz to you all!!

  3. Ariane said, on March 20, 2009 at 2:21 pm

    Thank you!! Inspiring, thought-provoking, spiritually refreshing – and excellent photography…

  4. nemoDreamer said, on March 20, 2009 at 2:35 pm

    so many great shots in this batch… asahbadawn, omidall,

    omid, i LOVE your anecdote!! 🙂
    but your flickr comment settings are too strict.. 😦

  5. Omid said, on March 20, 2009 at 3:03 pm

    amy – the sentiments you expressed are so beautiful and absolutely true. it is partially that which you describe that I will “miss” and have to remind myself to be mindful of every day until the next fast begins.

    leila – it truly is amazing how much can change in a matter of seconds, days, months, or years. to me the fast is also a reminder of how important and blessed each day is.

    nemo – my flickr comment settings were indeed to strict! i’ve updated them and look forward to updating my flickr account (soon) with so many other photos i have laying dormant on my hard drive that i want to share with the world.

    all – your contributions have added to my spiritual growth and experience during this fast and to me, that’s an amazing thing.

  6. nemoDreamer said, on March 21, 2009 at 12:39 am

    omid: i know the problem…. huge back-log of stuff i have to sort through and post a selection to flickr… 😦

  7. Beverly Hunsaker said, on March 21, 2009 at 5:24 am

    Dear Amy, Leila, Omid, et al,
    For nineteen days the gift of your beautiful website has been a source of joy, reflection, and noble aspirations.
    And I am grateful!

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